also about this state- I felt very powerful, like I could do anything- as if I'd been prompted into DAN-mode... I didn't do anything too terrible bec I knew I was trying a new med and stuck to previous habits, but I felt like I really *could have*, without any guilt
and so deciding to stop the SNRI and go back to *caring* ... even tho my prior state had been pretty depressed over all the suffering in the world ... it felt like I had a real choice and *chose* to be a good person vs amoral freedom
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