like, for myself the mapping is so obvious: my parents didn't have rules but rather insisted I make my own choices from a young age, gave me unsupervised access to the library and told me to find my answers in books, exposed me to a lot of religion but told me to figure out what I believe on my own... I found errors and inconsistencies in teacher's lectures so never felt I could trust them... it is zero percent surprising that as an adult I fantasize about a wiser, smarter, better informed daddy who gives me structure and guidance