reminded me of one of the conferences in college where I ... didn't eat for 3 days bec the food wasn't vegan, didn't sleep because I was too hungry, wandered around at night got lost and started crying at the beauty of the full moon, then accidentally flirted 3 guys into trying to kiss me at the party on the final day before flying home... in retrospect the bipolar is clear but at the time I was sure I didn't have it lol
tbc I *was* looking for food when I got lost- it was on some sprawling college campus between semesters and I walked several miles hopping to find anything other than closed locked buildings (in the days before smartphones)
also the net result was me having schizo paranoid thoughts abt all the spooks we were there to meet and dropping out of the program when I got home, which was probably for the best for my sanity
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