maybe I should have started here- what are the right words for all of these things & what should I make of them? https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1714674459766825120
@gnomicperfect they're a mix, idk which subset is properly termed hallucination vs other things, the main problem is they're unpredictable & disruptive to normal functioning... - sometimes I enjoy music or words or colors too much and start seeing flowing beautiful colors or shapes kinda dancing in the sky; or in nature sometimes like a glowing sparkling effect & everything is beautiful- starry night kinda thing - in Meeting messages come as a sense of shapes & movements / tensions & compressions? and occasionally short phrases or vivid insistent memories - when I'm having racing thoughts I get time distortions that make music sound very strange; alcohol sometimes helps w this - derealization thing where the world flashes out of existence, is upsetting bec happens while driving & daydreaming - perceptions decohere into raw input streams, sometimes voices turn to just beautiful fascinating sounds or vision becomes dappled light without object detection - sometimes sensitivity gets turned up to 11 and normal sensory input is overwhelming & upsetting- helicopters or poor speaker quality or bad smells