and when i say "i know very little" i mean, when i ask myself what i really strongly *know* to be true vs just kinda sort vaguely feel, my mind goes blank and i feel very anxious- the answer is idk much of anything w that level of certainty

but when i relax and instead think "what makes me curious?" i find the edges and have questions that imply assumptions... if i ask myself "what do i *feel* is true? what do i imagine as the realm of possibility?" i have a bunch of ideas it's vibes all the way down

an awful lot of the time i speak up just to start the conversation in places i think could be interesting... hoping ppl more knowledgeable than me will jump in and explain it properly, ask better questions etc...