sigh there's a pattern of me *wanting* to interpret other ppl's behavior as very intelligent, that wen idgi that's bec i'm too stupid... and then disappointment when eventually inevitably they insist on such stupidity that i can't keep them on their pedestal
does anyone else do this and if so wats going on psychologically?
reminds me of coming across my childhood iq test results as an adult and being really surprised n confused bec for years i'd misremembered it as a lower number... but thinking back, the score on the paper was the score i remembered for my best fren - i think i transposed who had which score, for some reason
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