you really can decide to be happy, just takes a bit of practice to wear desire lines from all ur other habitual mental patterns back to joy
like, it starts w pausing- and enduring all the ways u wanna flinch and cope and avoid at least long enough to perceive what's pushing n pulling on ur mood... and then orient ur thoughts towards happiness and lean into it to amplify and soon enough u will b giggling and skipping
sometimes takes quite a lot of relaxing and allowing tho 😅 emotional courage stays winning