then i met him... so unexpected to feel the glimmer of romantic potential, the warmth of connection, much in common and no reason to say no...
i feel like a whole complete person, somehow more real than when i was younger, Velveteen Rabbit 🐇 style
but also i catch myself being selfish, inconsiderate, unfair, dramatic, lazy, passive-aggressive, fearful, judgmental, imperfect... often in little ways, sometimes more