or fix my insecurities & lack of soft skills to do something more interactive & collaborative?
some of my flaws: -- more engineer than hacker mindset, have to force myself towards expediency over aesthetics & "the right way" and abstractions -- hyperfocus / scattered focus, sometimes i get a lot done and other times not much at all; i'm good at turning a big idea into a list of tasks but not good at following through -- niceness & frustration when collaborating, depending on the other ppl's vibe- i do well w very soft sensitive SWEs, get upset w ppl who trample me / don't seem to register my nuance
-- i'm a slow thinker, insights often start w vague nonverbal feelings that take pondering to translate into words, not great at verbal sparring especially w a group -- i overcomplicate things, everything is multifaceted & connected to everything else