i've never had a meditation practice, never even decided to have one... i've read a fair amount about meditation and tried it a few times, watching my breath mindfulness and some tonglen, but i've never decided to do it as a regular thing and idk why i'm so ambivalent
it's mostly an emotional cringe away from meditation- like "ughhh, sitting and not thinking? i already sit too much and i enjoy my thoughts" but also somewhat unclear about exactly what benefits it has vs other more enjoyable activities
so doing a meditation retreat mostly for social reasons rather than actual desire to meditate or do the jhana thing... would it be a good idea anyway?