i remember a lot of silent hours related to church but i don't remember being particularly bothered by it, i'd just go very silent and my mind would kinda dissociate and i'd hear voices sometimes ... but i can imagine being harshly scolded to be quiet before i was old enough to…
one of my earliest memories is from preschool- i was drawing flowers and trees and a sun in the sky and when i went to draw the radiating lines around the sun i thought "why should they stop? sunlight comes all the way to earth" and so i continued them all the way across the…
maybe it happened before conscious memory though, from even my earliest memories i could never yell or cheer even when appropriate, when others were- i'd feel physically choked up and couldn't make any noise