so i've tried the meme of "no self-coercion", been neeting for a year now. but tbh i kinda DO want to do some things? but my motivation fluctuates, i partially don't wanna too. how do you accomplish anything requiring commitment without overruling your own resistance sometimes?
i don't think this has been a wasted year though because quitting my job was something that scared me, felt like disappointing my parents who highly value hard work and look down on idleness https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1893859549821460875
and like, their first reaction *was* pretty negative and pushy, pressuring me to find a new job, but they do love me and have backed off which relieves a big source of anxiety that was previously weighing on my life choices