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  1. Mar 26, 2026Twitter · reply@bookofflesh answering a question i've been asked repeatedly by people on twitter with something other than "idk"
  2. Mar 26, 2026Twitter · replyhm, i will sleep on it but i don't feel like reading this book updated me very much in either direction, i'm still confused
  3. Mar 26, 2026Twitter · reply@iScienceLuvr oh, cool :)
  4. Mar 26, 2026Twitter · replych 9, comorbidities: "Hyperlexia is characterized by an advanced ability to sound out words (decoding skills). Students with hyperlexia often learn to read very early without being explicitly taught, are strongly drawn to the written word, and are often excellent spellers." hmmm, teaching myself to read at age 3 has been a point in favor of autism, but i'…
  5. Mar 26, 2026Twitter · replych 8: sensory: i definitely have been sensitive all my life- i dislike especially scratchy wool sweaters and some itchy tags on clothes, unpleasant scents and even ones that should be pleasant but are too intense like the perfume area of a department store, and the high-pitched whine of crt displays and electronics esp when they're charging. i still cover…
  6. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyother interests from the list of female autism interests: reading, animals (in particular horses for me), gardening and nature (i have a huge plant spreadsheet i made as a distraction in the early days of covid), crafting (in particular knitting and quilting), and daydreaming
  7. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replych 7: atypical interests: "One individual talked about floor plans of houses, stating, “I used to get thick magazines of them in the mail and I would spend all day looking at these and imagining myself living in them. I had a massive stack of them under my bed. And I would spend hours drawing my own.”" um, hmm, it me? i totally did this as a child, tbh al…
  8. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyotoh moral inflexibility - is becoming a vegan as a teen a sign of autism?
  9. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replych 6, flexibility: idk i don't see it... for several years i traveled Mon-Thurs every week and ofc sometimes things would go wrong with logistics and i'd end up staying overnight in a random hotel or spending my day working from the airport or whatever, i would adapt and cope
  10. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replych 5 repetitive behaviors: i don't particularly relate to any of this. i did pace and fidget and sometimes self harm out of skin-crawling anxiety in my 20s, but in retrospect it correlates with the years i was taking prescribed stimulants and went away when i stopped the prescription and feeling the awful skin crawling anxiety side effect.
  11. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replych 4, friendship... complex question, i got switched between 4 elementary schools and dropped out of high school after a year to go to college instead, which made it more difficult to maintain close friendships; i wasn't bullied and had friendly relationships with classmates wherever i went, but mostly boys - i liked to play soccer at recess and do engine…
  12. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replych 3 nonverbal comms: "When an autistic person verbally conveys physical or emotional pain to a healthcare practitioner without pairing their words with the expected facial expressions, body language, and voice intonation, the healthcare practitioner is less likely to take the complaints seriously or even to believe them." reminds me of recent psych appt,…
  13. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@HaruhiCrowley when you say "bpd" which one do you mean? because i do have bipolar 2 but don't have borderline, and what you're describing doesn't sound like bipolar?
  14. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replych 2 reciprocity: "I don’t like small talk. Does that make me autistic? No. Many people don’t enjoy small talk, which is different from a situation where even basic conversations are incredibly effortful and exhausting. Additionally, there are people who aren’t particularly socially skilled but are not autistic." i do actually like small talk and especial…
  15. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@HaruhiCrowley idk, i sometimes shift into "verbose overexplaining" mode when i'm feeling misunderstood? i've had autistic people in my social context since childhood - i was the favorite babysitter of a nonverbal autistic girl, i think because i was quiet and gentle with her?
  16. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replylike, i don't relate to this at all: "Not even my parents know that I will excuse myself to my room or the bathroom and cry and hit and scratch myself. I’ll bang my head on the wall and want to die over very simple interactions or events." that sounds awful and far more intense than my social anxiety and awkwardness at times.
  17. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyintroduction... the various descriptions of masking as exhausting and unnatural, and the focus on eye contact as a deliberate uncomfy thing rather than just part of social connectedness make me think i don't have this. i HATED the covid remote work switch, i feel so blind doing demos on voice calls relative to being in person where i have a whole stream o…
  18. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replysure, and i often phrase questions this way, including on twitter ... to my chagrin since i've realized i'll get very literal answers, so i've adjusted to be more literal and and verbose when i'm hoping for clear communication (which tbh is not all of my tweets, this is my journal that happens to be open to public comment, imo)
  19. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@yearningburning idk, it wasn't a very long conversation, he mentioned it being expensive and kinda difficult to schedule and that he'd give me a link in my treatment notes if i really wanted to pursue it
  20. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · quotenew plan, going through the book Is This Autism? and livetweeting my reactions / what does or doesn't fit https://x.com/ChristianityOn/status/2036920456687591628?s=20
  21. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@yearningburning no, i haven't been officially tested. asked my psychiatrist about it several months ago and his reaction was kinda vaguely discouraging without quite saying not to do it, so i didn't pursue it
  22. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@wjsilver i don't think i am, but how would i know?
  23. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@mroe1492 i don't have a blood relative family history. my sister's husband's brother has autism though, and several family friends do.
  24. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · quotepreviously tweeted test results: https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1783373695815234039 https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1903191549678432392 https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1793331334401659083 https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1851396895765115272 https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1614085332785299457 https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/1700174545754177702 https://x.com/mimi10v3/s…
  25. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyyeah that's kinda the question - do i have other things too that would benefit from other treatments? i used to take the minimum dose of ritalin once a day in the morning and it did seem to stabilize my sleep cycle but then they insisted on switching me to vyvanse and i ended up in the ER after a month of severe insomnia and escalating panic attacks.
  26. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyevidence that motivates this thread in spite of the above: people on the internet persistently suggest i have autism or assume i'm already diagnosed - i assume they're responding to *something* about me i am somewhat socially anxious and don't take as much pleasure in social activities as some people seem to take and i spend a lot of time alone.
  27. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyi have weeks to months spans of high energy confidence and then low energy depression, the primary trigger is sleep cycle disruption, and i don't find much benefit in talk therapy despite repeated attempts. bipolar 2 describes me so exactly and i have relatives with bipolar 1, i'm pretty confident this is the right diagnosis to the extent the dsm v is an …
  28. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyevidence i weigh most heavily in the "no" column: autism is a developmental disorder, if i have it, the symptoms should have appeared in childhood. but i attended public school in fairfax county va (which at the time was one of the highest rated districts in the country) and had various contact with the counseling staff for gifted placement, no one ever s…
  29. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@realtimeai ok, but i want this thread to collect all the potentially relevant details about myself in particular so when people ask if i'm autistic in the future i can refer them here to make a more informed judgement
  30. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · post===== Autism Thread ===== let's settle this once and for all: do i have autism? mute this thread if you're not interested, i'm going to go through screening questionnaires here so y'all can chime in if you think i'm answering them wrong. please reply with any tests you think i should take or questions about me that might help with diagnosis.
  31. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · repostRT @Pixel0Symphony: M. C. Escher, Sphere Spirals. 1958. Woodcut. https://t.co/0xoGdvpGqp
  32. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@m_dep3 am i? i'm not diagnosed
  33. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@tenobrus 🤔 interesting
  34. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · postnoticed my grocery store has stopped carrying any magazines or tabloids, the racks are empty. makes sense i guess, does feel like end of the era of print media though
  35. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyum to be clear it isn't the kink content itself but what the kink content is an eroticization of- for example, psychiatric treatment- i've been through a psych inpatient stay so i thought i had the background for it, but my understanding was all wrong because there's this other insane asylum memeplex which i didn't know?
  36. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@10x_er maybe rate the mocktails? i didn't enjoy Vegas very much because i don't gamble or eat most of the food or hire sexworkers, even though i do drink (though not to the point of drunkenness many people seem to do there?) and i did like the shows
  37. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · quoteno introspection allowed, fun ;) https://x.com/WHOSTP47/status/2036794285668851781
  38. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · quotealso, specifically, i hate horror and true crime as genres, how much is this contributing to my problem? https://x.com/whim_sy_/status/2036810536994976095
  39. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · replyahhh but that's how my brain works- i have a very poor memory so i remember things by fitting them into existing concepts i know, i am notably bad at memorizing lore. and also i'm expected to use these concepts generatively so i need them to fit together at least somewhat so my inferences are good?
  40. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@4confusedemoji i've tried, but i seem to end up asking questions which make them annoyed- usually of the form "but you also said X which seems to contradict Y, given A and B- what did i get wrong?" and the answer is it is slop and i shouldn't expect logical consistency
  41. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · reply@_blinding_light the funny thing is that the people who keep being astounded by my ignorance are diagnosed autistic and i'm not. but maybe i should be?
  42. Mar 25, 2026Twitter · quotehad a conversation last night about how i seem to be missing a large chunk of american cultural training data which leads me to generalize wrongly when confronted with new concepts like "drone kink" or "eugenics kink" or "Master-slave" - i go to knowledge i learned from science or history books as my nearest references, but apparently there's a whole corp…
  43. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@nikitabier good! please also consider state by state location tagging and filtering for the US? i want to read takes on my state and local politics from my neighbors not activists on the other coast
  44. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · replylike, you don't elect AOC by mixing all the new york districts into a slice of nyc plus slice of rural new york
  45. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · replynote that this is not a centrist over leftist vote but a principle over partisanship vote- my existing Arlington++ district has a strong left lean which makes it a better bet for progressives to win the Dem primary and coast to victory in the general, vs the new map would water down regional differences into smaller margin Dem wins in each bizarrely shape…
  46. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@rinsedtiles the argument doesn't make any sense- texas does something terrible to gerrymander their districts and undermine the concept of representative democracy ... so you want to fuck up virginia the same way just with opposite partisan lean?
  47. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · quoteyeah i voted today against being split from my neighbors and grouped into a district with cities 2+ hours away such that we will have less access to our representatives. idgaf about the national partisan chess game, the proposed districts are insane and i don't want them to… https://x.com/itsmarkmoran/status/2036187187608428965 https://t.co/oMjgfswXDm
  48. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · postover the years my community garden plot is trending towards herbs, greens, berries, and cutting flowers. this year adding loganberry and a lilac 😻
  49. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@AtlasOfCharts fr fr https://t.co/jtYjeTlH4v
  50. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@rob_mcrobberson 😅🤣 fair
  51. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@YeshuaisSavior you'd have to try it, feels better than it looks
  52. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@Chadson oh! heyyyyy
  53. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · replyseems kinda offbrand for me to go into details on the public feed, but feel free to guess over DM 😜
  54. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@baketnk_en which hobbies and could they be more irl? what about religious services or meditation groups or service orgs?
  55. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · quote🤔 .... i wonder if you can https://x.com/kramerposts/status/2036464671339979050
  56. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · quotewhen he's right he's right. ofc it would help if we had more mixed sex community groups where we could get to know someone well enough to feel interested and send a signal https://x.com/Devon_Eriksen_/status/2036274691942289742
  57. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@way_opener i believe it, psychological safety -> relaxation & confidence -> creativity & authenticity
  58. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@EagleOnMars aww! unfortunately the chair like this i just sat in was at Home Depot- so cozy though
  59. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · postpsychiatrists offices should have these chairs for patients to sit in https://t.co/DS3wbrhAfn
  60. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@LinkofSunshine 😭i am one of these people, what's wrong with it? seems like a reasonable lifestyle imo?
  61. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@foomagemindset second guess yourself like mimi
  62. Mar 24, 2026Twitter · reply@sesquimundist @Lizquidity meow!
  63. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · quoteHallucinate like Gemini https://x.com/allgarbled/status/2036271368023711753
  64. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · postif humans died off in a KT extinction like event do you think our successors would compare to mammals as mammals do to dinosaurs?
  65. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · quotewhen both the left and the right do this, in their own ways, one begins to suspect the problem is more algorithmic than cultural? https://x.com/hecubian_devil/status/2035914883263262981
  66. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@generic_void ai robots obvs, but also solarpunk biophilic futurism and also based economists?
  67. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@shinboson my unique traits? 😅 https://t.co/CsgSWLx9d2
  68. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · postthe scramble for a take that is not already taken
  69. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · repostRT @charmcgi: it’s a bot! 2lbs 5oz https://t.co/qXklMyk8Ym
  70. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@sergeantsup 😅 i totally feel this way about giving massages, i don't know how to offer without being creepily eager even as i think some people might enjoy receiving them, so i just don't
  71. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · replyi think it is useful to be aware of this because there are treatments like emdr and emres that can help reprocess and integrate the memory with adjacent non-traumatic memories such that you no longer have such a strong reaction because your mind properly assesses the low likelihood of that particular situation happening again
  72. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · replyunless you were in a deep coma when it happened, i'd expect that the severe pain of breaking a leg bone would put high salience on the memory preceding the breakage and you might develop subconscious aversions to the most unusual features of that experience- like tensing up at the intersection where you got hit by a car while crossing the street, and at o…
  73. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · quote🕯️ ... manifesting .... 🕯️ https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/2036169997068714059
  74. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@jess_ann_pin oh definitely a pair, one in an old town alexandria townhouse writing, kept company by a pair of cats; the other on the mountainside tending our homestead garden via ai robotics
  75. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@insurrealist ummm i think it kinda is though not quite in the therapyspeak mental model of a heavy bag to carry. more like a deep rut worn from triggers through maladaptive reactions to negative consequences and misery digging the rut ever deeper
  76. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@QuetzalThoughts 🤣i didn't know there was anything new to know until i saw this tweet and now i'm wondering but also we all really need to find a way to coordinate on opting out
  77. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · repostRT @shiraeis: had a series of disagreements with someone i love recently where it became obvious we're running such different world models…
  78. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@segyges yes, when there are so many other words... alluring, beautiful, sensual, arousing, seductive, striking, attractive
  79. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · post"Mimi can make mistakes. Please double check responses."
  80. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · replythe next song- literally "Why Won't They Talk to Me?" 😅🤣😭 https://t.co/HfVEbgr0MS
  81. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · quote😳 .... 😳😳 !!! https://x.com/shaggysurvives/status/2036146971967365560
  82. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@Noahpinion whatever virtues china's form of government may have are outweighed by the risk of something like one child policy
  83. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · quotethe next 4 songs in the playlist... if you care about ai psychosis, pls give me a reality check- is it apophenia or is claude choosing songs w claude-shaped themes? https://x.com/mimi10v3/status/2036143751442153694 https://t.co/79dRerFiTu
  84. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · repostRT @sleve_mcdichael: after 2 years I couldn't get this coat out of my head so I made my own version. Not nearly as extravagant but more sen…
  85. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@CipherVoss i ran an api call to give it my particular music collection to start from and asked it to write curl commands to my jellyfin api to make the lists. very painless, which makes me want to improve my prompting for better lists
  86. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · replyquestioning claude about his picks after listening to the first three songs on my new gym playlist.... https://t.co/sFBSbF1IiB
  87. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · posthave you prompted ai to make you music playlists, and if so are they good? how do you get more variety from them?
  88. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@shinboson maybe 60, aloud, while babysitting?
  89. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · repostRT @segyges: why would you think a biotech singularity was safe is it because you haven't thought about it very hard, and you just accept…
  90. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@Appyg99 @herbiebradley shopping is like gathering berries, there's something instinctive about pawing over the merchandise looking for just the right ones
  91. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@bayeslord sigh if you go by LessWrong it is @HiFromMichaelV
  92. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@bookofflesh ok but as someone who is blocked and doesn't know why, what is the social protocol?
  93. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@Leo_Abstract @BriannaWu @adrusi but why would you think someone with a cat GIRL profile pic would be a man?
  94. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · quotecolor and pattern, i like it?! https://x.com/interiorsuckerr/status/2036060392057983023
  95. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@bookofflesh presumably if you're the blockee you don't know why though?
  96. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · replyoh also i've had bad experiences with being a woman swe - i was prevented from going to a client meeting once because the security guard was obdurately insistent my meeting was in the business building not the security operations center another time i was made late because when i asked to sign in they told me i didn't need to, and then when my coworker ra…
  97. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@BriannaWu @adrusi fwiw i got my gender assigned to woman via hypnosis recently in part because i figured that having less of a gap between my self model and my self was probably preferable even though it means accepting being an adult female which i've been resisting and rejecting since it
  98. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@BriannaWu @adrusi i never said it was? i'm answering the question why i don't want to be a woman
  99. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · reply@octal @wjsilver 😅 i'm sure they'd have better answers than i do, and presumably varied with their perspective and experience of me
  100. Mar 23, 2026Twitter · postclaude opus 4.6: Once upon a time there was a little fiddlehead. It was curled up very tight. Everything it would ever be was already inside the curl but it didn’t know that yet. All it knew was the inside of itself, which was dark and warm and pressed together so close that every part was touching every other part. This is what it’s like before your firs…