reminds me, earlier today I was noticing that I've accumulated quite a bit of tension around the self-monitoring part of my mind-body, contrasting with being fully immersed in the moment and losing the self-monitoring sense of separation & desire to control https://x.com/eshear/status/1689384029165125634
but also, like lol I developed that for a reason, to rein in the bipolar w countermeasures... but could I let it go? have I sufficiently integrated better habits? would it help w the nagging sense of anxiety I've been feeling?
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Quote tweet · Sep 7, 2023@sashachapin @ThinkingBone ahhh, hmmm... I do believe you bec I do experience a range of mental states due to bipolar without mood stabilizers, but I…Reply · Mar 25, 2024@eulerdomy huh interesting, i feel my introspection n self monitoring comes from learning to manage bipolar without mood stabilizersReply · Mar 28, 2024oh and tbc current partner hadn't done anything wrong or given me any reason to be so on edge.... i mean idk maybe contributing to it somehow in some…Reply · Aug 7, 2023@tapir_worf @andrewmreichart self-monitoring & awareness of your weirdness allows you to calibrate and reduce the visibility of symptoms? at least for…