I'm not sure what "terrified" is in reference to- tried to run searches on tweets n DMs, didn't find anything I'd said... but I'm scared of a lot of things... I get somewhat anxious from all the usual things like heights and being trapped and rattlesnakes and violence / rage; I'm scared of humans physically harming me, I'm scared of being talked into killing myself, I'm scared of making mistakes that are hard to undo, I'm scared of being too scared to do what I think is right...
oh- until covid I'd have said my biggest fear since childhood was a pandemic / bioterrorism because of the fear of infecting family & how ppl turn on each other... but having lived through it now it feels just very unpleasant & undesirable rather than a scary nightmare
also I have a fear of not being able to distinguish hallucinations from reality- the helplessness of being in the psych ward and unable to understand what's going on... it is awful
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Reply · Jun 2, 2025@notyetassigned tbf my top fear was a pandemic.... covid did kill a lot of ppl for a mild oneReply · Jan 5, 2023@CobaltKitsune Well… I’ve had a deep fear of pandemics since childhood and welp 🤷♀️Reply · Sep 9, 2022@FlavoredCurry @__justplaying lol my worst fear since childhood was a pandemic… welp 🤷♀️Reply · Nov 16, 2021@DistractedAnna My lifelong biggest fear is pandemics, so...