it's been easier than i would have guessed, to be in a relationship again... easier but different, because i'm different, i've grown in the time alone

then i met him... so unexpected to feel the glimmer of romantic potential, the warmth of connection, much in common and no reason to say no...

i feel like a whole complete person, somehow more real than when i was younger, Velveteen Rabbit 🐇 style

but also i catch myself being selfish, inconsiderate, unfair, dramatic, lazy, passive-aggressive, fearful, judgmental, imperfect... often in little ways, sometimes more

his presence is motivation to make choices i respect, to practice self-compassion and integrity, to more often be the person i want to be 🫶

since i met him i've done therapy for old trauma, i've been eating better and exercising more, i want to be a happy healthy kind partner...