many of us are not "default okay" and it's strange, feel like we *outta be*- having a content and functional mind without having to put a bunch of effort to get & keep it that way ... and i think guilt over not being default okay adds to the sense of being intrinsically flawed
but recently i've been coming around to the idea that modern urban life sets us up to be uncomfy by default, from childhood
like, we have contracted awareness... but also we spend most of our lives with literal walls around us blocking sensory experience from beyond the space of a room