anxiety too fleeting to work with but nonetheless i think it shapes my behavior... it only rises to awareness for a short time at least 🤔 not a pleasant thing to dig into / don't want to create it by chasing it .... otoh better to figure it out on my time than in a crisis?
it's something like... trying to "be present in the now", to deal w what's immediate rather than ruminating about the past or fantasizing about the future... overall good practice but the way i'm doing it is somewhat w aversion & tension to push away memories & anticipation
which creates standing tension of memories & anticipation + repression of them, w adhd-like result of grasping for stimulation in the present to stay away from past/future anxiety