i get kinda the same feeling whether i'm being interrupted & talked over or told a topic is off limits or have someone walk away when i'm talking or get told to keep something secret- particularly when it's a broad category of thing or retroactive, but doesn't bother me if i…
maybe part of it is abusive relationship where i'd get physically hurt when i'd say too much and learned to stop myself.... but that happened when i was 18 and i remember being this way before possibly related to defense work and clearances and as an elementary kid shredding…
i remember a lot of silent hours related to church but i don't remember being particularly bothered by it, i'd just go very silent and my mind would kinda dissociate and i'd hear voices sometimes ... but i can imagine being harshly scolded to be quiet before i was old enough to…