i was very quiet as a child and often felt my throat physically tighten like i couldn't speak even if i wanted to; twitter has been good for reconnecting my thoughts to expression, but i wish i knew what originally happened... my sister is quieter than me even, when we travel…
i get kinda the same feeling whether i'm being interrupted & talked over or told a topic is off limits or have someone walk away when i'm talking or get told to keep something secret- particularly when it's a broad category of thing or retroactive, but doesn't bother me if i…
maybe part of it is abusive relationship where i'd get physically hurt when i'd say too much and learned to stop myself.... but that happened when i was 18 and i remember being this way before possibly related to defense work and clearances and as an elementary kid shredding…