i feel irrationally excessively bad whenever i'm told not to talk about something and idk why, though it feels like childhood "trauma" (sigh i need a different word for emotionally-salient-negative-memory that doesn't imply something awful happened to me)
i was very quiet as a child and often felt my throat physically tighten like i couldn't speak even if i wanted to; twitter has been good for reconnecting my thoughts to expression, but i wish i knew what originally happened... my sister is quieter than me even, when we travel…
i get kinda the same feeling whether i'm being interrupted & talked over or told a topic is off limits or have someone walk away when i'm talking or get told to keep something secret- particularly when it's a broad category of thing or retroactive, but doesn't bother me if i…