i was very quiet as a child and often felt my throat physically tighten like i couldn't speak even if i wanted to; twitter has been good for reconnecting my thoughts to expression, but i wish i knew what originally happened... my sister is quieter than me even, when we travel…

i get kinda the same feeling whether i'm being interrupted & talked over or told a topic is off limits or have someone walk away when i'm talking or get told to keep something secret- particularly when it's a broad category of thing or retroactive, but doesn't bother me if i…

maybe part of it is abusive relationship where i'd get physically hurt when i'd say too much and learned to stop myself.... but that happened when i was 18 and i remember being this way before possibly related to defense work and clearances and as an elementary kid shredding…

i remember a lot of silent hours related to church but i don't remember being particularly bothered by it, i'd just go very silent and my mind would kinda dissociate and i'd hear voices sometimes ... but i can imagine being harshly scolded to be quiet before i was old enough to…

one of my earliest memories is from preschool- i was drawing flowers and trees and a sun in the sky and when i went to draw the radiating lines around the sun i thought "why should they stop? sunlight comes all the way to earth" and so i continued them all the way across the…

maybe it happened before conscious memory though, from even my earliest memories i could never yell or cheer even when appropriate, when others were- i'd feel physically choked up and couldn't make any noise