weirdly my takeaway from Existential Kink seems to be dampened desire to rescue anyone from their circumstances, like i don't need to be their rescuer if i'm actually undermining their enjoyment of their suffering
the book annoys me because i find the vibes repellent ("juicy" sexual pleasure? 🤢 self help book promising wealth and love? 🤢) but also think the theory is basically sound
maybe it's also the lesson from a year full of roleplaying of all kinds- in tonight's finale i killed the main npc and another player's character who'd gone bad and the player clearly wanted a dramatic end, but me being a hero or winning the dice rolls was kinda incidental vs…